Well these days I have been resting very well – one could say not by choice because I am unemployed at the moment and I am still awaiting results from the few good job applications that I did for the last few weeks. I am getting very good at writing application letters – I am prose writing to potential employers; ‘Hire me! Yours Sincerely, Charles Dickens.’
But to be really honest, I have been enjoying my time at home. I love it, I am at a bliss. Obviously, and I say this with so much confidence that I WILL EVENTUALLY GET A GREAT JOB SOON, but hopefully before the New Year or it would be really nice to start work soon during Diwali Fesyival – the Indian festival of lights which is celebrated here in Fiji that involves lots of sweets and fire crackers. Starting before Diwali would be most ideal because I want to feast on a lot of Indian sweets from co-workers (I know how ridiculous that sounds, especially if you are a reader from Fiji or who has lived in Fiji).
However without much pressure, for now I am living, I am breathing, I am resting, I am reading often and I am staying informed and connected. I am currently reading ‘Great Expectation’ by Charles Dickens and I have read 15 books so far, I am aiming for more than 20 this year. Oh and not forgeting the fact that I am writing too. Gosh I shouldnt talk about that .. shhhh .. but then eventually few of my small works that I have been working on will appear here on my blog and I will be sending a few out too. Yes, I am ready for rejections, or no responses, but hoping those small works of fiction will be published. I had this idea, a Flash kind of idea that I thought would work well with the blog and again I shouldnt talk much about it, but Ill post it up hear on the virtual home of my imaginations and thinking soon. Give me a bit of time, just a bit.
My goodness, I feel as if I am rambling again, a bit scatty, but hey who cares, atleast thats what authentic conversations with a friend is mostly like. We could talk for hours, at our great comforts with friends on everything and nothing in particular, topics just intertwining or sprouting from the earth.
So yeah, for the past couple of days I just thought that I will be honest, truthful and little bit more open on this blog. Like if you should meet me in real life, you would be like, “Oh I know what you are going through and sorry for that,” or “Hey congratulations on (that thing).” Not that I want to be pittied or praised or be a braggart, no nothing of that sorts, its just that I want to be more transparent and comfortable in this space.
You know what, I love to watch You Tube videos of people who I admire and who are invested in a similar craft which I wanna be invested in. One of the thing that came out of a video that I watched recently is that we should enjoy what we are doing – like oh my gosh, thats such a no brainer Kaliova. But then really, it sounded very new to me. Like, wow, thats such a cool idea and it makes sense. It was an Adele, Michelle Phan and also Author Stephen Kings video interviews that I watched recently that this idea stood for me. They talked (on seperate interviews in case you are wondering) about how we should enjoy the process of doing what we do and be fans of our works ourselves (vanity, no, positive self esteem, yes). We need to do something that we would like to see, read, hear, taste or watch ourselves. Enjoy yourselves my darlings. Just delve deeper into your craft, and work towards a niche market. Just focus and have fun. Do the work. Lets hunker down and do the worker. Its difficult, I know but lets do it. Come on, lets chant… put your fist up – Do The Work! Do the work! Do the Work! Yes, friends, yes.
On that end, regarding this blog and my overall dream, I have been working on a few things. I am trying to create contents that I want to like myself. By the way, do I mention enough how I am working on becoming an official writer. It gives me a bit of goosebumps, to admit that here, its uncomfortable to have to admit publicly. And a lot of things I will be saying here from here on will be personal and uncomfortable to admit but as I said, I hope to be more transparent on this blog. Thats my 800 words of personal stuffs, filed under Personal with an intention to be more connected with readers (assuming I have some). Okay byee! Have a great weekend.